Today I signed with the literary agent I’d been hoping to partner with. She warned me my manuscript would need work, that I’d have to be open-minded and teachable in continuing to shape it. I’m nervous about what I don’t know, but I told her I believe in my story–and I believe in hard work. So here’s to the next stage in the process.
Some of the pros of pursuing a creative field in my forties are that
- I feel calmer, braver, and less neurotic than I did when I was younger.
- I’ve mostly raised my kids, so I don’t have Mom Guilt when I take time away from them to get better at my craft.
- I’m more disciplined with my time because, honestly, there are fewer things in my life that feel like interesting distractions (with the possible exception of podcasts on unsolved murders).
But there are cons, too.
- I feel rushed, like I’m always on the verge of running out of time. It’s hard not to compare myself to twenty or thirty-somethings who are doing all the things I’m doing, but sooner, so the odds of success seem ever in their favor.
- I get mentally exhausted sooner than I did in my twenties, and I wonder if my ideas are “safer” because of this mellow(er) decade.
- I’m physically tired.
In order to keep going, I have to remind myself that
- I was meant to find this path at this time (I believe God directs our lives more than we realize).
- My ideas are probably less wild but truer than if I’d written them down earlier. This is because I’ve lived more. I’ve sat in the shadows with people. I’ve traveled the world. This has to count for something.
- My life is going to pass whether I pursue writing or not. Since there’s no slowing down the passage of time, I might as well spend some of it doing what I love.
Are you thinking of creating art in the second half of your life? If you need a little encouragement, check out these women who got published after the age of 40.